I'm only 22, so I never expected this result. While I really hope it is a false positive, as it most likely is, this is our baby. This baby will be born. Regardless of what shows up.
I will admit I have cried and bawled over this. It's a lot to take in, the idea that your baby may have something "wrong" with it. That the chips could be stacked against your baby when you don't even know if your baby is a boy or a girl. No matter how loved a child is, being different, having special needs, does tend to make life more difficult. And that, of course, is never what a parent wants for their child. They don't want the path to be harder than it has to be.
I have cried. I have looked on wikipedia. I have tried to reason with myself that most likely, nothing is wrong. Everything is fine, and it was just a false positive. That's hard to do though. I don't do so well with the whole sit back and everything will work out thing.
Given the waiting, I'm having trouble focusing on school. This is my last semester. 65-ish days til graduation. But in light of my recent news, it all seems so...small. It doesn't seem as important.
|15 weeks 6 days if anyone cares. I should have sucked in my stomach, lol. Definitely a baby bump though.|